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For The Struggling Musician: My Diary

 

By Annette Bzdawka

So, I heard the news about the tragedy in New York this morning, and I literally felt like I was in a daze. “Are we now at war?” I thought to myself. “What’s going to happen to my life? How are things going to change if we do go to war?” And I recall that just yesterday, as I was waiting for the Metro Red Line in Universal City, I was looking at the artwork on the pillars inside telling the stories of how our forefathers and foremothers fought for their future generations down here in Southern California. I remember the melancholy looks on the faces of them, and how they must have always been thinking to themselves, “How can I assure security for our future generations?” Heavy stuff. And how we can all be whiny, (And yes, I’ve done my fair share of whining) self-centred musicians in this day and age, is that’s what’s come of it? I believe it’s time to take a broader look.

After taking some time to reflect on the events of this morning, and how those events affect my life here, I came to a few conclusions. I realized how lucky I am to be able to do what I want with my life, and to say what I want, sing what I want, to put whatever kind of sticker I want on my guitar cases, because I could have been born in a country where that stuff is not allowed. I think it’s very important to appreciate the things we do have here as artists. Because artists have the power to send messages to the rest of the world about things they believe in. From Farm-Aid to Rage Against the Machine, we are all blessed with a special chance to be heard, and to make a difference in the world if we want to. The thought of that being taken away from me because my freedom is threatened like it was this morning is pretty unbearable.

The other conclusion that came to me is related, and that is that my life here as a struggling artists is not so bad, and the struggle is actually part of what will make the battle won that much sweeter. In fact, I’ve had conversations about this with a friend of mine who is a writer, and he said “Don’t ever be content with where you are until you ARE where you’ve always wanted to be.” Using the energy from my own frustration to push myself and my career that much harder is something that has helped me get to where I am right now, and I know it will get me to where I ultimately want to be. And we are all able to do this today in this place and time, knowing also that we have to be accountable for all that happens to our careers. Because we do have those freedoms. We do get to choose what we sing about, and what we wear, and the messages that we give to others, and how hard we push forward to move ahead.

Yes, we all know that money is a huge factor in getting better opportunities for your act, but even my interview with Joey Arbagey, (VP of A&R at Arista records, [see LA Music Scene Part 2 for the full interview]) made it clear: “Persistence is one of the biggest things an act can have that will get them the attention they’re looking for.” Soul Asylum didn’t make it until their 13th album. The Goo-Goo Dolls: 10 years. Jimi Hendrix had to go over to Europe and make a name for himself there before he got any attention here in the States. But he never gave up until he got what he wanted. And we all have that luxury. We get to decide for ourselves just how bad we want it. Why do bands only give themselves like 2 years (or even as short as 6 months - that’s ridiculous!) to “get something going” before they give up on the project? Who picks that arbitrary 2-year time period? That guy is an idiot!

So, consider yourself lucky to have the ability to chase your dream. Not everybody in this world gets to do that. That’s all.

DIY Magazine
Annette runs her own in-home record company (remedial children records) and is a strong proponent of the Do It Yourself philosophy toward success. The label is funded completely by herself. Send your comments, questions, feedback, and YOUR ideas about what you’d like to see in future articles to her at: diy@publicitywhore.com
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